A Bare Gentle Directness Among Rhetorical Kinfolk

Last night, I was thinking how it gonna be when he was no longer here. I cant fall asleep as easy as usual. Early this morning, I saw him cleaning up his room and get the luggage ready. Both us went out at 11 and stop by at Cyberjaya having our lunch accompanied by Kuzuto and his mate.

We arrive LCCT around 1.10PM and I cant hide my sadness anymore. But I managed to hold my tear from falling down in crowds. This is the day. The hard day to go through. The day that I fear since weeks before. Finally we are on the seconds to get apart.

The carrier charging him RM205 for a 28.4kg luggage which is luckily I have the amount that he forgot to withdraw his. He went to the departure hall at about 1.45 which is the moment that I must realize, he is now taken by the wide distance, away from our regular meet-up days. The least I can do is to hug him tight and let him go.

At 5.15PM, I recieved his call. He is now safely arrived in KK. From his voice I can hear the sad feeling, far away from home, lover and fear of a strange place. In summary, it creates the feeling of emptiness.

Dear, I do feel empty as how you feel now. Emptiness is something that we can't share. All we need to do is to gain strength to fortify the patience, upon waiting the arrival of the day for us to hold each other, the day that from now, we going to defy uncertainties to ensure it will come, like how this fateful day coming.

IF YOU'RE GONE

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

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